Sherlinfication

at 4:43 PM

Haven really been posting pictures on this blog.

Edited the picture I took from X country.

X country was crap.

Remember how I decided to walk?

I ended up only walking about 2k and sprinting all the way to the finishing line.

I was totally dying.

It was worst then running at constant speed.

I just stop making myself depress by looking at the weighing scale every morning and night.

Staring my my tummy.

I am perfect the way I am.

"Nobody can make you feel inferior without your consent."

- Eleanor Roosevelt.

Nobody can.

xoxo,
the divine

at 3:01 PM

I was tossing and turning in bed last night.

Despite the huge headache, lyrics from wait for me came into my mind.

Darling do you know what I prayed about you.

Praying you would hold on, and keep your loving eyes only for me.

I am waiting for, waiting for you darling.

Wait for me too. Wait for me as I wait for you.

I nearly died.

Kept forcing my mind to stop thinking.

Then came in geog examples.

Tropical rain forest 10 degrees N and S of equator.

Buttress roots to support their weight.

Wide spread ans shallow roots as they do not have to tap deep to get water.

....

ADB lends money to villages in Indonesia.

Some sleepy tirumoyo.

I was totally exhausted.

My mind was super active and I was so drained.

Managed to fall asleep somehow.

Woke up at 530 and was too tired to go to school.

My head was still pretty much darn active.

I guess after hours and hours of lyrics and geog examples hunting me, I just collapsed

and when to bed.

So there. Woke up at about 930 had breakfast and did maths.

I pretty much slack around a lot by reading my storybooks.

I'm testing sean on chem now and trying to test myself too.

See how much I can remember without studying.

Heading back to geog and SS pretty soon (:

xoxo,
the divine

at 6:29 PM

Today was awesome.
Half day tomorrow and x country on Friday.
Thank God for the extra time.
I really really really need time to study.
I can feel myself starting to focus on my work and I love that feeling.
(:
Going to study with kelshi tomorrow!
MAC'S BREAKFAST BEFORE THAT!
HURRAY!
I kept whining to kel about mac's in the morning before I had my recess.
After having the brownie cake that ruthy made, I shut up and didn't want anything anymore.
:D
Have I mention this?
My family thinks I'm starving myself.
My mum buys me truck loads of food and ask
me to bring it to school, eat it and still buy food for recess.
My sister thinks that I'm starving myself and she asks me to eat too.
I so do not starve myself mum, sis.
My dad doesn't see me eating so I don't think he notices anything.
Anyway, I'm currently waiting for my crab sticks to defrost so I can cook them for dinner.
I'm preparing my own dinner!
My mum who has more life then me is out for a dinner with her friends.
My sis is working and I think my dad has to go back to work too.

Sometimes, I wonder if your status is directed to me.
Then I think again, I guess not.
But then again it's not exactly good.
I've no idea what you've been up too.
But who gives a effing shit about it?
I am nothing to you.
I'll get you out of my mind.
At least for the mean time.
Nothing, nothing will take away my focus on my studies.
I can do this. I so can do this.
Ps, its still the same. Ich liebe dich.

xoxo,
the divine

at 9:34 PM

It's tough maintaining 3 blogs.

Actually it's 2.

I know, I'm such a weirdo.

Anyway, does anyone remember/know the last hymn we sang during church?

I really like that hymn :D

This coming week is crazy shit.

Biology mock tomorrow.

A maths mock and Cedar's got talent on Thursday.

I'm thinking about not going for Cedar's got talent if joey doesn't get in.

Cross country on Friday and I'm in competitive running.

Yeah who am I kidding (:

The entire bunch of us will be bringing our camera and we'll be walking 3.6km

I've to fully memorize all the geog and SS stuff and start working on my sciences.

After prelims, it's time for hardcore music.

I've to memorize all the chords.

7 different keys.

Major and Minor.

3 inversion.

3 chords per inversion.

That's about 7x3x3x2=126

126 chords for me to memorize.

Don't get my started on all the flats and sharps I've to watch out for.

Co-ordination of fingers makes my fingers sore.

I've yet to finish my arrangement.

Changing from C to A.

Sigh..

I'm dying man.

But somehow, I do enjoy playing the songs.

I like the satisfaction of having the examiner telling you this after you finish your song.

" You must have practiced really hard! "

I like the feeling of passing the exam and feeling so happy!

I can do this. I can I can I can.

ACE ACE ACE ACE.

God, please give me the strength and the wisdom and guidance to pull through all this.

Cast thy burden upon the LORD,

and he shall sustain thee:

he shall never suffer the righteous to be moved.

Psalm 55:22

xoxo,
the divine

at 9:14 PM

Bought my new bag!

It's adidas! :D

The guy who served me was super duper cute!

Anyway, I wondered if I made the wrong choice by taking the music exams.

Sigh.

This sucks to the max.

xoxo,
the divine

at 9:00 PM

STXL: I'm going to eat you pradaaaa!

Prada: ):

Pam: O:

Prada: Hmmm?

STXL: What are you looking at! ROAR.

Pam: haha.

STXL: LOOK! giant and baby paperclips!

STXL: Why are you ignoring me
Pam: mmmm,

STXL : Yaye food!

Pam is reading.

STXL *pouts*

Pam: Oh?

For your entertainment (:

xoxo,
the divine

at 9:47 AM

My chinese teacher.
She is a chiongster.
(:
But I like her very much.
She is always calling us *inserts name* tong xue!
She gives us lessons to do our homework.
She really really wants to be on the newspaper I think.
I mean, she wants the whole class to get A1 for HCL!
But she decided against that after seeing us all suffering from the homework.
(:
My lao shi always buys us candies and milo packet during remedial
I think she is awesome! (:
LAO SHI LAO SHI LAO SHI! :D

xoxo,
the divine

at 6:20 PM

Saw PP on the floor today ):

Must have kicked her down by accident when I was hugging her yesterday.

Sorry babe, you did ask me to take care of her d:

Listening to what hurts the most now.

Tests are piling up.

Mum's bringing me to a tuition center for biology on Saturday.

Been trying to save money and cut down at my food intake at the same time.

Managed to save about 20 over bucks this week which is awesome considering my

allowance is only 30 bucks per week.

Raid the refrigerator and found this :

The picture says it all, so I finished it.

The strawberries inside were AWESOME!

2.4 tomorrow, physics mock tomorrow, EYD tomorrow.

I am boycotting it along with neh neh pink buddy and all.

I mean, they just randomly told us it was EYD and expect us to dress up?!

*inserts angry face emotion here*

Well, don't expect me to pay just to dress up when I am all hot and sticky after 2.4

I am just plain lazy too :/

xoxo,
the divine

at 4:20 PM

为什么我看到的每一个背影都让我想起你呢？

记得当时走在你的背后的感觉是多么的美好。

很怀念当时的你，当时的感觉。

但为何又走到今天的这张画面呢？

Test and all were so so I guess.

Gonna start studying for physics.

xoxo,
the divine

at 6:33 PM

Created a new blog at tumblr to post all my pictures (:
Get the link from me if you want
(Which I seriously doubt anyone would.)
But nevertheless, its for me to look back.
I want to buy canon s90.
I have currently $26 in my camera fund.
The camera cost $699.
Anyone want to contribute to my fund?
:/
Mummy afforded to pay.
But I really want to have a camera called mine.
So I told her it's alright when it is not.
IT IS KILLING ME INSIDE BECAUSE SHE ACTUALLY WANTS TO PAY FOR IT!
That aside, I'll have to share it with her :/
She's getting me a laptop though.
She keeps telling me that but I told her after O levels then shall I get my lappy.
Camera camera.
trying to spend $2 per day so I can save $20 a week.
<3 Can't wait to dabble more in photography and editing!
Well. After O levels! :/
Studied chemistry before going online.
heading to grandma house soon.

xoxo,
the divine

at 8:52 PM

Went out with the ladies on friday.
(:
I drank frozen strawberry margarita!
It was a little bitter and sweet at the same time.
I love it (:
well, don't feel like posting anything except the drink.

Managed to catch up a little with captain Toh today.
Had fun with her.
I miss B div 09 so much.
It was awesome.
The best few moments of cedar life.
I wished I'd treasure it all a little more then.
:/
Studying with baby tomorrow (:
Excited!
Miss my silly billy baby.

Side track.
Saw her blog.
I wondered what would have happened if i didn't let you go.
Would things have been different?
I guess so.
Maybe.
But what I know is that I didn't regret what I did.
It wouldn't be fair for you to wait for me.
I would be a selfish person.
I don't feel anything now though.
Just want to find out how it would be like if things ended up another way..

xoxo,
the divine

at 9:28 PM

I feel fat.
My hair is so thin and horrible ):
I feel really ugly now.
Tried taking photos ( YES. I cam-whore even when studying.)
and it all turned out horrendous.
):
Horribleeeeeeeeeeeeeee.
Side track.
Watching a date with the vampire.
Or something like that.
The show edison chen was acting in.
I thought he was damn hot, until the sex scandal.
:/
Boooo.

xoxo,
the divine

at 4:25 PM

Have I mention how screwed bio SPA and physic mock turned out to be?
No?
Well, here it is.
IT IS SCREWED.
): <
Tedious cutting!
Had salad and 1/4 of udon mee for lunch! (:
The salad was awesome!
Anyway, have I mention that I'm going out on Friday! (:
muahaha.
Shall go study now.
Anyway,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BESTIE! (:
I love you loads!
Oh, and I missed my BFF show even though I rushed home ):
Crappy shit ):

xoxo,
the divine

at 10:17 PM

Natalie wong made me choke on my food when she came to my table and pose for project runway.
I just went WOO...*chokes*
Everyone saw that. Oh yaye.
Bio spa tomorrow.
I've got to go sleep now.
Anyway, I am pissed off that N check my shirt today.
I think I'm the only one.
Gosh, I get the point I look fat.
But I don't use draw strings.
I am actually smart enough to buy a HUGE shirt ohkay!
Wahliao.
And since when does a nerdy trip science class has girls with short skirts!
==

xoxo,
the divine

at 8:38 PM

Edited by shifu.

I actually took the candle picture and passed it to him.

Awesomeeeee.

Check out his blog at:

Leavethe-heart.tumblr.com

Check out his works.

Yeah I kinda started like photography because of him.

I mean, after lookin at his works and stuff (:

xoxo,
the divine

at 5:46 PM

Ran 2.4 yesterday.
My timing was 2 mintues worst then last year.
O: 2 MINTUES! LIKE GOSHHHHHHHHHH.
Need to run more. ):
Went to ikea anyway.
Sheesh. I did a little physics just now.
I seriously think I am done with physics.
I am not sure.
Memorise venice points more or less.
:/
I'm just not sure.
sigh.

xoxo,
the divine

at 10:07 PM

Dear S,
I love you and I wouldn't want anything/anyone to hurt you.
( I know what that means and he know what that means. For all you busybodies, it's not that type of love tyvm,)
I wish I could share your misery too ):
But whatever happens, just don't get hurt anymore alright.
You looked so sad and depressed then.
It was so unlike you.
Gosh, why does she have to do this to you?
):
I'm sorry to hear that.

xoxo,
the divine

at 3:18 PM

Woke up bright and early for church today.
(: Sat with Charmaine and Debs.
Had breakfast after that! (:
Yum I love the carrot cake!
Came home and I slept.
Tuition is cancelled for today!
Gonna really start on SS.
Have been procrastinating a lot.
): Sigh.
I need a good study place.
Any recommendations?
:/

I..
I'm at a loss of words to talk about you.
Shucks.
You make me sound so silly all the time.

xoxo,
the divine

being in loveeeeeeeee at 9:02 PM

Your heart skips a beat when you see him from a distance.
Up close, your heart just doesn't listen anymore.
It's awesome to be in love right SSS! (:
Just seeing the cute face makes you smile the whole day.
I know I know I know!
(:
Sighhhhhs.
Being in love is probably the most blissful thing ever!
I am so excited for you SSS! (:
Jiayouuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu.
I'm waiting for good news yeah!
<3

xoxo,
the divine

at 3:26 PM

Decided to just aim to finish all my homework today.
Tomorrow and sunday, physics and SS here I come.
Which consists of Chinese and more Chinese.
Drained.
I have yet to finish one ke tang zuo ye at all.
I'm dying to visit the library to get more books.
But the books seem t be my distractions.
I keep reading them and never seem to get any work done.
Gah.
I'm gonna lock the computer out of my room and really get started on my work.
Rah.
I can do this.
I can finish my work.
COME ONNNNNNNNNNNNNNN!

xoxo,
the divine

at 12:10 PM

Tonight I've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up.

It those kinda days where I feel life sucks.
Yeah again.
Slap me, I'm being a bitch.
I don't care.
I just wanna roll around in my bed and sleep.
But I can't.
Tons of chinese homework.
I have got to start studying.
But I am too lazy.
Gah.
I am still pretty pissed over certain stuff.
It's like. URGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHhh.
But whatever.
I don't give a shit about it so there.
Back to chinese.
Sheesh.
Why do I have to answer questions about why the author heard her grandma's voice?
IDK!?! I am not her and she just freaking heard her grandma voice!
Like I give a shit about that.
Sigh.

xoxo,
the divine

at 9:08 PM

Went for training today.
Don't get me wrong.
I like training with my juniors and all.
They are fun and annoying which makes them the bombx.
It's just that, I feel a need to dedicate more time to studying now.
Officially step down is on the 27 of may.
Gosh, prelim would have almost be over then.
:/

I remembered how I said I wanted to be a nurse when I was younger.
Then as I grew older and knew what was expected of a nurse..
[ you know, (drag the 'you know' in a long voice!) the poo clearing and injections. ]
I decided to be a teacher.
Then, I realised that the pay was really little and I couldn't control myself then.
I came to Cedar and decided since sec 1 that I want to be a taitai.
It was the more suitable job for me.
So the one and only goal was : find a hot and rich guy who loves me for who I am.
But recently, I read a book that my twin lent me.
One child.
I felt a urge to be like the teacher. Torey Hayden.
I want to be a child Psychologist.
I want to make a difference in the life of others.
I want to bring them out of their box and show them new things.
I want to be the one whom they can trust.
I don't want to live this life aimlessly, not contributing to the life of others.
Not making a change in the life of others when I know I can try to.
But deep down, I know it's tough work.
I might just bend and break under the stress.
But I know I can try.

Hmmm.
Realised I need to do sciences and maths.
The arts would be good too.
:/ I need biology more then physics though.
Sigh, this dream might not come true so easily.
Sheer hard work.
I should put my dream occupation list like this.
1a) Psychologist
1b) TaiTai.
haha.

xoxo,
the divine

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