Sherlinfication

at 8:56 PM

It didn't occur to me that the center was on the same line as W.
Screwed up my maths test pretty badly.
Lost at least 12 marks.
Surprisingly, I didn't cry.
I didn't break down.
I knew I panic and all.
I knew I could do it after drawing the diagram.
Which I did but it was way to late.
Oh well.
I'll do the corrections and get it all right.

Headed home after that.
Managed to study Venice.
Only about the rise.
I feel drained.
Eating my dinner now.
Tuna sandwich.
I need to trust God.

Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches,
in necessities, in persecution, in distress for Christ's sake:
for when I'm weak, then am I strong.
2 Cor 12:10

I truly realise that I am weak.
Very very weak without my God.
I think I can do everything and I feel that I can handle everything.
When in fact, I can't.
I admit that at times it's really hard to trust in something you can't see, can't feel.
All you have is faith.
It gets tough at home when no one really understands.
But somehow, after praying and all.
Everything feels much better.
For when I am weak, then am I strong.

xoxo,
the divine

at 9:30 PM

Been feeling very happy recently.

Well, not happy happy happy.

Just happy.

Have been staying back at word space all the way till closing recently.

I like word space (:

Did maths today.

Twin was with me till her team PSL!

Then Ann, MingZhen and Ainsley came along.

This one, confirm maths genius.

Trigo buddy. HAHA we did the questions together!

This.... SLACKER.
HAHA.
Nah actually I just managed to catch her at the moment she was using her phone. (:
She asked for another shot but I refused! muahahah.

So yeah did trigo and plane geom though I am not too confident yet :/
Came home and read SBQ techniques.
Shall rest early today!

yes, my mum bought the tissue box thing.

She bought a new towel too.

My room is offically stitch invaded. (:

xoxo,
the divine

at 9:45 PM

You became more charming.
Really, why haven I noticed it before?
Oh. Maybe I did but it wasn't meant to be mine.
I couldn't touch it, much less grasp it.
There is always a distance between us.
When I move away, you move in closer.
When I move in closer, you drift further.
It is like a tango dance.
Rhythmic, appealing and attractive.

Joanna: I won't give up! (:
Hey debbs! (: Thanks for the advice (: Anyway when is the good friday service? Haha I didn't go to church on sunday! ):

xoxo,
the divine

at 10:14 AM

I'm sorry I forgot.
Your message is still in my draft box.
I didn't send it because I didn't want to think about you.
I'm sorry.

xoxo,
the divine

new skin! at 11:30 PM

Changed my skin (:
Anyway, I am still in the breakdown zone.
Nearly cried today in music class.
I get easily agitated and I still cry easily.
But it's better.
I'm in better control of my emotions now.
Thanks for the concern people.
Mainly my family and those who knew (:
To a special someone who was there.
Thank you.
Yes, I am referring to you Sean Teh.
Haha. Re-read through your messages.
Encouraging. I am not being sarcastic here.
(: I won't give up!

Had ice-cream!
Hagen Dazs is the bomb!
(: Watching inuyasha now.
Did chem and maths today morning.
My eye bags are half gone because I slept at 10 yesterday.
But it will probably be back again tonight.
Oh oh oh!
Borrowed books from the library.
Read 3 books already.
One child ( Lent by twin. It's awesome)
Do-over ( Sequel to royally crushed! GEORG IS HOT HOT HOT! <3 )
Weird. ( ummm. nerdy teenage romance. HAHA )
So yeah. Should be sleeping already.
My dad is asleep on the floor. Haha.

xoxo,
the divine

at 9:43 PM

I officially broke down today.
I just cried when I did a maths.
Everyone just left one by one after finishing their paper.
I couldn't leave.
I couldn't finish my paper.
I couldn't answer the questions.
I don't care if anyone thinks I am weak.
I am. ( ohkay so the being a happy teenage says I must not say stuff like this. )
I am not happy at all.
I did the paper until 530.
3 and a half hour.
and I only finish it because I looked at certain parts of the solutions to understand it.
You don't understand.
I DID CIRCLES YESTERDAY TO PREPARE FOR THIS.
I could do the questions.
I felt like a dumb idiot sitting there staring at those numbers.
Nothing came into my mind.
Nothing.
I practiced maths.
I used to love maths.
I used to be bloody freaking good at maths.
I am stress beyond words.
Came home and forgo my favourite TV show.
I sat down and did circles.
I can solve 90% of the questions now.
I took out chemistry and tried to do it.
I couldn't do it.
I wasn't sure about my answers.
I rewrote my notes just yesterday.
I could answer questions yesterday.
Today, nothing.
Nothing.
I still can't do chemistry.

I broke down in my room once again.
My mum came in and asked what's wrong with me.
I just started bawling my head off.
I don't feel like talking.
She just left the room.
I just stared at my work.

I could have jolly well just scream F and give up.
I could jolly well just admit I have a learning disorder or I am plain dumb.
But no, I am not going to admit to it.
I am smart. I can do this. I will achieve good results.
When the o level papers come, I WILL ACE IT.
I am not going to wallow in self pity.
I am not going to admit defeat to this failure.
Perseverance.
I will work my butt off.
If the smart people take 2 hours to do this.
I will do until I FINISH it and I get every single question CORRECT.
I don't care if it takes me all night.
I will work on getting my answers.
Then on my speed.
Then keeping speed and accuracy.
I can do this.
This is a one time thing.
I am not going to break down again.
I am going to ace everything else.

I feel better already.
Much more motivated.
If I ever say I want to jump down from my classroom.
( Like how I did today in remedial, though ruthy said I wouldn't fit in. Thanks a lot.)
Slap me. I cannot give up.
Perseverance. Perseverance.

xoxo,
the divine

at 10:03 PM

Went with Nat to free cone day on Tuesday.
Ended up paying 70 cents for Mac's ice-cream and enjoying myself instead of queueing for 45 mins to get a stupid free cone.
(:
To all those losers who queued 45 mins for it, MY ICE CREAM TASTES BETTER! :D
Nah, you're not really losers. If I had time, I would queue too.
Bought hardcandy!
They are awesomeeeeee!

Went to Bishan Library after remedial with Ruthy!
It was quite productive.
I recopied all, YES ALL! My chemistry notes (:
Happy Sherlin!
Bought physics TYS and fulscape and a rough note book.
Reached home at about 8.
Bathed and did circles!
(: Managed to do it except for one question which ruthy is gonna help me with!
Redoing English now because I decided to listen to Mr S.
Read through the questions and answer to see if I answered it.
Searched the dictionary for words I didn't know and used the thesaurus in a bid to improve my vocabulary.
I hope everything pays off!
Effort before Harvest.

xoxo,
the divine

at 9:49 PM

Team south! x3

The most enthusiastic team who does the waveeeeeee!

One thing I learnt from Mr Teoh.

" The game is about making your teammates look good. "

xoxo,
the divine

at 6:56 PM

Praise the Lord for His grace.
Praise Him for His healing wonders.
I truly thank God for His awesome miracles..
MARK IS AWAKE! (:
Thank God for that!

xoxo,
the divine

at 2:04 PM

When i read princess diaries last night.
It hit me.
It's like how she felt with Micheal.
I closed the book.
I went to bed but I was awake the whole night.
At first, I started to shiver and I cried.
I know how that feeling felt like.
It was sucky.
Gosh, tears just rolled down like like..
raindrops.
I miss you.
I really do.
I guess feelings don't fade that easily.
Just because I stop talking to you for a week, I think I stop liking you.
If it was that easy, I would have realised it 2 and a half years ago.

xoxo,
the divine

at 11:57 AM

I still want a tongue piercing.
Gosh, it looks really really cool.
I want a helix piercing too!
(: < But I'm super afraid the person will pierce wrongly!
Still considering about that.
Life is boring now.
Gonna start studying at 1.
Anyway, yesterday's outing was awesomeeeeeeee!
Debbs shouted at the wrong house "auntie chweeeee enggggggg"
while the rest of us just ran away.
It was hilarious.
Played games and watched the end of the spear.
It was a really good movie.
I think everyone should go watch it.
It might be hard to understand at first, but later on, you will get it.
Had rides home with Isabel, Edelwisse and Daniel.
Sent edelwisse then Isabel and me and Daniel home.
Realised that Daniel lives really near me! Haha. (:
Wanted to write about some other stuff.
But.. Some other day (:

xoxo,
the divine

at 3:23 PM

Almost done with homework.
Either that or I just wanna start studying.
Current electricity is killng me.
I rather do static electricity.
Hurhur.
Outing later on!
HURRAY :D

xoxo,
the divine

what i did today. at 10:55 PM

DOMOKUN! <3
Walked like crazy today.
But the stuff I got were soooooo little!
Bought a tee.
Ribbon hairband.
Undergarments. I TELL YOU, they are chio to the max!
Like seriously (: PINK and White with flowers or something.
Had dinner with cousins and uncle and aunite at momoya.
Super full! (:
Happy sherlin means a good thing (:

I think I look super uber cool here.

xoxo,
the divine

at 9:19 AM

All star was yesterday!
HAHA WE GOT 1st from the back! :D
But, despite it all, I can totally say that we're the most bonded team! (:
The pictures are with me but I can't upload it cause idk where the cable are!
Sorry all star players.
WILL upload it as soon as possible.
Was fun playing and everyone was laughing at poor sheena's leg.
GET WELL SOON SEXYAE (: <
I love south! (:
PSPSPS! I SHAKED HANDS WITH EYECANDY 2! (:
AWESOMEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

Things aside,
woke up at 8 today.
Gosh, did my chinese homework and I'm gonna get back to studying later on.
Finished chem ( or at least what I knew of chem.)
Have to study for physic, but I'm gonna do my chem notes first.
Shall once again stay up late today.
Couldn't stay up late last night.
Knocked out at 9.30
Anyway, congrats to ST for getting your award.
Waaaay proud of you and I mean it (:
Take care of your hand and don't hammer it again.
HAHAHAH :D

I stopped thinking of you so much.
I guess it's over.
Stop doing what I always did when I used the computer.
I didn't realise it till just now.
I laughed at how silly I was last time.
Haha.
I just hope this time round, there won't be another like yours.
I mean it (:

xoxo,
the divine

at 7:25 PM

HELLO!
Finished all my homework other then Chinese.
Almost done with chem notes!
At speed of reaction now (:
Tempted to cut my hair back to spikes.
Haha. I KNOW. LOOK LIKE A BUNG.
But I grew long hair because of someone and I don't see the point in it now.
Anyway it's a warm now a days.
I'm just dying here at home doing my notes.
Just finish eating my yellow watermelon
I love it so much! (:
Much better then the red watermelon :D
I wonder how watermelon grew from the flowers!
How does watermelon flower look like?!
Ooo. googled it. It looks pretty!
I want triangle watermelon square watermelon! (:
Hurraaaayyyyyyy! :D
Watermelon crazy :D
Anyway, I want to go piercing.
Helix piercing (((:
Watching cruel temptation.
I want to slap that bitch's face.
Seriously let that man go off.
What's the use of getting his empty shell with no feelings ( filling HAHAHHA!)
Eh hem. So yeah.
*rolls eyes at all the couples*
15 year old girl dating 24 year old guy.
16 year old kids getting pregnant.
AIYA. Just wait for the right person to come.
Tskkkkkkkk.
Ohkay shall stop using the computer. byebye! (:

xoxo,
the divine

at 10:27 AM

HAHAH OHKAY.
I'm gonna marry JUSTIN BIEBER :D
He's so cute! (:

xoxo,
the divine

at 7:56 PM

Refer to my blog dated 15 nov 2009.
I wrote that once I got over my crush, I would write about it again.
Maybe its time to write about it now.
Maybe its time to reveal and spit out everything.
All those small fonts in italic, it was about him all the while.
Let's just say, he made me a better person.
I always believe that God sent him as a channel of blessing.
Whenever I had any problems, he would be the first to know.
Other then God of course.
The reason why I'm in triple science?
It was partially because of him.
(Though, I would have probably still choose trip and regret not taking lit as usual. )
The reason why I study so hard.
The reason why I did so many other things.
Him.
It's freaky really.
I'm not with him yet he motivates me to do so much.
I love how the way he smile and all.
But now, not anymore.
I have to admit I waaaaaaas getting a little crazy.
But somehow, things just didn't end up that way.
Feelings fade as we stop talking as much.
But I still do and always will treasure him as a friend. (:
I am not revealing his name. But close friends will know.
It's obvious really.
Sigh, its nice to get rid of all this in my heart (:
Yes yes, his picture with me is stuck on my notice board at home.
Oh yes, I have a book where I wrote down scribbles about him when he was being nice or mean! (: <
No one can pretty much ever replace him I guess.
I can't believe I actually liked him that long.
Haha. (:
But all these are and will be memories (: <
Haha. Hey you, I'm over you! (:
But nooooo, I'll still look to you for advice and help ALWAYS.
I can truly now say this with no heartache.
I love you very very much (:

xoxo,
the divine

nah just another update. at 11:52 PM

Meet the parents session.
I took some one's time slot.
HAHA.
Not my fault please!
I didn't even know I was suppose to be in the 2nd session!
So generally, the comments I got were...
" She's very responsive and motivated. "
" She is very hardworking and always tries her best to answer questions "
" She answers all the questions in class but outside of class, she doesn't ask much questions. She should ask more about the harder questions and improve. "
Results are super like a sin and cos graph.
Fluctuate like crazy.
Finished one maths worksheet and maths paper 1.
Will complete all my work by tomorrow.
I hope I do!
Tuesday is gone since I have SPA and all-star later on.
Waste of my time since I won't be selected for combined.
Too noob :D
Have to make use of the rest of the days and start revising! (:

Sean is telling me some ghost story now.
Freaking me out.
Some stuff happened to him yesterday.
):
All over though (:
Go and sleep.
2 hours of sleep isn't enough silly!
You will just kill yourself

Table! Shifted my stuff to the left so there's more space for me (:

My new shelf chucked with books and assessments.
HAHA I still keep my enid blyton books. Memories please!
Tilt your head to see it! HAHA.

You know, it's been truly amazing how my life changed since I confessed my sins.
I never felt so secure, with some one to lean back on no matter how tough life gets.
I don't get the 'lost' feeling anymore.
Even if I rarely do, I know who to seek and ask for guidance.
I pray that I'll never ever stray from the path you have lit up.

Thy word is a lamp unto my feet,
and a light unto my path.
Psalm 119:105

xoxo,
the divine

at 10:08 PM

Went for brisk walking. (:
Stop and watch some people playing ball.
Ahh.
I wish I were a guy.
Then I'll be able to move so quickly!
By the way, since S became my El teacher,
I have been really really conscientious about my grammar.
I keep reading a sentence over and over again to see if everything flows well.
I know, WOAH.
I'm those kind of person who will not usually take a second look at sentences I write.
But still, there are mistakes no matter how much I look at it.

Teehee.
Shall head off to bed soon (:
Whiny kid says I sound happy.
Hurray. My facade is working :D

xoxo,
the divine

at 7:28 PM

My throat feels like that is something stuck inside.
Maybe it's those words that I want to say to you, but it somehow got stuck on the way out.
It hurts so badly.
It is so sore.
I dose down loads ( and I mean LOADS) of drinks.
But it is still stuck there.
So how?
Shall I tell it all to you, or live with the sore?
I decide, I tell myself.

Spend my precious 3 hours after school (which ended at 1130)
heading to mustafa to search for joey's Polaroid film.
Bought my super duper thick bio TYS.
Yes, I AM GOING TO ACE THE NEXT TEST AND SHOW W I CAN DO THIS.
From today onwards, 9 MARCH 2010. ( it is 9 march right?)
I'll ace every test I have all the way till next year so I can get my 9A1s!
Must start studying and revising slowly first.
So I don't burn out. (:
Going to start studying soon.
Gonna run at 9.
The weather is so hot.
I can't stand it anymore.
I try to save Earth by not switching the air-con.
But by 2 am in the morning, I switch it on.
Haha. Hey! At least I save Earth 3 hours per night!
(:

xoxo,
the divine

at 8:39 PM

So, i flunk bio by 1 mark.
Cancel those stupid mistakes ( 3 marks) and I could have pass.
Didn't study hard enough so I can't blame anyone though I cannot adapt to W's teaching.
I think W thinks that I have AP.
I can't help it if my face is like that.
I just don't smile when I'm focused.
W said " so you just want to get a C6 for biology for O level?"
I replied " Errrr. I don't know. "
I feel like slapping her plastic face.
Who the hell wants to get a C6 for O level.
Everyone who is anyone wants a perfect score.
Not just 6, but 9 A1s.
I am, anyone and everyone.
Mum has been searching for biology tuition for me.
Anyone any good recommendations?
I will stop watching television and put in more effort to study.
// Crap I wrote put in more effort to run at first.
When results stop showing, everything gets harder.
Really.

Cried today watching Dear John.
It was more about the family part then the lovey-dovey stuff.
Miss a certain someone so much after watching it.
But, I am not going to tell that person that.
Ohkaaaaay, I might. I don't know.
Ate with PBF winner dodo and twin.
Deposited my money into the bank and went home.

There's some all star training on thurs.
I know its a good thing and a once in a blue moon thing.
But though I told the other 3 that we shall go together,
I am not sure. Am I wasting my time there?
I pale in comparison to the other 3, don't even think I get to play or whatever shit.
I'm not even sure if it's like confirm representing the zone.
Might be better off studying instead.
I really don't know.
I think I should ask if its included in my testimonial.
If it is then I should go.

Chasing after time.
Chasing after the impossible.

xoxo,
the divine

at 8:30 AM

Talking lesser and lesser.
Feeling lesser and lesser?
I'll never find someone who makes me feel the same way you do.
Not exactly the same.

xoxo,
the divine

at 10:26 PM

Maybe, I'm growing up too soon.
I wished time would slow down.
So drained.
Finish work after work.
Meeting deadlines after deadlines for school work.
Having to manage problems regarding issues.

Side track, but beautrice just said I don't look like I'm from 4c.
I look too fun and cool, and I look like I don't study.
( totally positive though :D )
THIS IS SO WRONG. I DO STUDY!

Anyway, growing up too fast.
Have been slackiing quite abit.
Didn't really read up my stuff other then chem.
Shall do more assessments tomorrow.
Talked to grandma today about what I wanted.
Obviously since Oddy came back with her results that are not too bad (:
Grandma said if I did achieve it, she would give me 200 bucks.
Asked grandpa if he was showing his support.
He said, I am your witness to what your grandma just said.
Haha.
If I did get what I wanted, I wouldn't mind even if grandma didn't give me that 200 bucks.
What I want would be enough to pay for the future.
Have to work harder!

xoxo,
the divine

at 8:49 PM

Physics spa.
It was tough.
But I managed it somehow.
Thank God for that.
Others kinda screwed it up. ( I am not even sure if I did. HAHA.)
But fret not! We have 2 more to go.
I bet you girls can totally ACE it.
Plus, your theory is much much better then mine.
So don't worry and be happy! :D
I got my first A1 ever for chem.
Hurray! But it's quite pathetic.
First A1 in sec 4. Well, better then none, and more to come!
:D I must must must work harder.
But the motivation gets hard when you realise that sometimes, results just doesn't show.
Well, I shall motivate myself! (:

Who wanna meet up with me during the holidays to study?
Hurry come and chope date!
I got chem SPA on tues though!
LAI LAI LAI.
I need a study buddy! :/
Anyway, I realised that school is a really condusive environment to study.
I can spend 2-3hours there doing maths. (:

I am going to write my chem notes now. Byebye! (:

xoxo,
the divine

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